Restless

All throughout my life I’ve been the person who doesn’t really take crazy risks. I overthink everything and I am content to think myself into doing nothing out of fear. Oftentimes this leads to me to sit around and do very little of what I actually want to do, more content to stay in and watch a movie or read a book.  Something easy and comfortable, something that doesn’t stretch me. People who see this part of me tend to assume that I’m pretty content with life and don’t desire much change from what I’m used to.

 But the thing is, my heart and mind are in a place of turmoil longing for change and difference. I have an incredibly restless heart. At my core my entire being is shaking for a change to take place. In me, this country, this world, in what we’ve made Christianity to appear, and even in you specifically. If you’re taking the time to read this, I desperately want life change for you; not because I think there is anything wrong with you, but because I do believe that there is something better meant for you than where you are at right now.

That is why my heart is restless. I may be content to sit and watch a movie instead of going off on some adventure, but at the same time my heart longs for change, as it was formed to do by God himself. “If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.” John 15:19. We don’t belong to this world; it’s not our home and we aren’t meant to accept it the way it is. Yes, we are to live in it, but we are to live in it with the intent of creating change through the life-impacting and heart-altering name of Jesus.

I fear there is a tendency to get caught up in the “That is why the world hates you” part of this verse and focus on retreating into our safe places and fearing the world. Let’s focus on the fact that if we do not belong to the world, it’s because we belong to God. Jesus was very clear that belonging to him came with a set of responsibilities that belonging to the world did not. Mainly that if we are to follow Jesus, we should actually do that. We are to live as Jesus lived. Not in a wholly literal, shun technology, talk in old English, wear robes sense, but to take the principles and practices that Jesus employed day to day and strive wholly to follow.

When I see Jesus, I see a restless man.  Not in the sense that he was anxious or unsure of what was coming or could not sleep because he was afraid. However, I believe that Jesus saw the darkness in the world; the pain, hurt, and evil that we see but flee from. Jesus was a man who was concerned with this, not content to accept that this was the way it was meant to be, because He knew the greater plan and the heart of God. I believe that Jesus’ heart was the most restless heart to spend time on this earth. His faith in God allowed him not to suffer the negatives of a restless heart that we are prone to. But his love for people and God made his heart and body restless to bring about the life change he was here to herald. 

Restlessness comes about when we do not feel at home in a setting, it comes because we want a change to make things more comfortable and homey to us. Embrace the fact that restlessness makes you want to make change. Than go and do it. Do not allow a restless heart to make you think you need a change in setting, to hide from a situation in fear, or to do nothing because the issue is too big.

 Let your restless heart spur you to step out in faith and do as we are called to. We do no service to ourselves or anyone else if we leave that job for another. If you see a wrong, strive to right it. I pray my heart is restless in this world until the day I’m done here, because as long as I’m here I have work to do. And it’s that sense of restlessness driving me to action that makes me aware of what must be done.